Always Learning!

God is always faithful and its sweet to trust in Him. I am always learning and growing closer to Him, maturing in my faith.

I recently had to fly back home with my oldest son, he had a scheduled visit with his bilogical father. When I knew the time was coming up I was nervous like always. Its a big trip if we fly or drive. Working out the details with my husbands job and with my youngest two children can be a big task itself. As the time got closer it was clear to me that this trip I would fly alone with my oldest, leaving my other two children at home with my brother and husband. I was happy the details were working out smoothly but deep down I had anxiety about leaving my home, husband and children. I really love being home and I hate to leave. I dont like to be away from my husband either, i miss him terribly! I kept thinking once my son is with his dad it will just be me..how weird will that be! It scared me! I also had thoughts about my children being taken care of here, who would do my daughters hair!? lol What would they have for dinners and lunch? I started to pray and gave all my worries to Him.

I think as a wife and mother you become so used to your routine and taking care of everyone that its hard to imagine stepping back. Slowly I thought about all the postives for this upcoming trip... time spent with my almost 2 year old neice, visiting with my mom and sisters...enjoying the flight and time alone with my oldest..

The trip has come and gone and now my son and I are safely back at home! I can honestly say that yes I missed my husband dearly and my children but the trip was wonderful.. I accomplished alot of things and made incredibile memories with family...I enjoyed one on one with my neice and the chance to grow our bond! Back at home, my husband accomplished alot as well..I came home to alot of projects and a very clean home...the kids were proud to show me all that they did together. ;} All in all, it was a bittersweet trip! I have to say that I am thankful to God for providing the time that I got to spend with family. I am always learning to let go and let God take over!

The road of life bends and twist around..sometimes it can be scary.. I am really learning that if you trully give every situation to Him he will hold your hand and change your heart. Whatever we may be going through now or in the future we can trust in Jesus to get us through it!

Here are some photos of my trip!

Me, my mom, sisters and my neice

My mom and me!

my sister and best friend, Jessica

My sweet neice and me!

Such a great flyer, loves the window seat. He was great company! treasured our time!